I'm not too thrilled with my last blog post.
My mouse hovered over the delete button, but I'm going to leave it alone. After all, this blog is about my reality of living with a narcoleptic spouse, and that day my reality was that I felt bitter. And tired. And discouraged. But today my reality is different. I feel better. I actually feel hopeful. In a previous post, I discussed how Nuvigil worked for my husband, but we couldn't afford it (even with so-called "good" insurance). Well circumstances have changed and Nuvigil is now within our grasp! I'm very happy about it; my husband will start taking it this week.
I feel hopeful because the husband who is irritable, quick to anger, and sometimes says mean things is not really my husband. It's my Medicated Husband. Different guy - same winning smile. Unfortunately, I don't see that smile a lot when he's on his current medication. I've talked a lot about how much I hate Adderall, so believe me when I say that I am thrilled to kiss it goodbye.
Believe it or not, I'm not knocking Adderall.
My husband deserves to feel better. He really does. As much as I hate the way he is on Adderall, he hates the way he feels. Because he's actually tried Nuvigil before, we know that it works for him. I posted about it not too long ago because our insurance didn't cover Nuvigil. We applied for the medication assistance program, but guess what? If you have insurance, you don't qualify. What?! That's our health care system for ya.
We're still interested in trying some other things, including something to help him sleep, but I'll take things one thing at a time for now.
I'm just so grateful that my reality is different today.